Dear Tumblr ex-crush,

Hello. Last night, I was thinking about you, and I guess it’s because I read your recent post yesterday. 

Uhm, I just want you to know that I’m really happy for you. I mean it. I know that you love your girlfriend very much, and who am I to protest? Hehe. You’re not my crush anymore, so I don’t really mind. Your girlfriend is so lucky to have you. You are a loyal and honest person, and I know that you love your girlfriend so much. You are lucky to have her, too, because I know that finding someone whom you truly love happens once in a blue moon, and you have found yours. Your relationship may be currently in a mess (based on your recent post), but I know that you’ll be able to overcome all your problems. I know you as a very strong person, and I have no doubts that your relationship will last.

Did you know that I cried in my bed last night? And that’s because of you. I cried not because I still love/like/whatever (I’m not sure if it was even love that I felt for you. I mean, I don’t even know you very well. PBB TEENS?!! HAHAHAHA) you, but because I miss you. I miss you. I miss being your friend. I miss everything about you. I miss talking to you. I just miss you so bad, and it pains me to think that we’re not talking to each other anymore.

We don’t talk anymore, because we’re both busy. I don’t want to leave a message, because I don’t want to bother you. You’re graduating in college soon, and I know that you have a lot of problems. I don’t want to be a burden to you. I don’t want you to feel awkward when you see my TA in your messages. I don’t want to message you also because I don’t want you think that I’m still after you or something. I am not. I want you and your girlfriend to be free from bullshits (like me).

You rarely update your blog. You post like, once a month or every two months. I miss your super long posts. You used to be very active here on Tumblr. I miss your way of writing. I miss reading your ideas, may they be crazy or not. I miss your wild imagination. I miss you. :’(

I had a lot of crushes here on Tumblr, but you are the one who had the most impact. I liked you not because of your looks, but because of something I don’t even know. Basta.

I really miss you.  I miss being your friend. I will never unfollow you and you will always be part of me. LOL SCRATCH THAT. That’s too cheesy. HAHAHA. Anyway, I wish you all the best in life. Take care always, will you?

I know that you’re least likely to be able to read this post, since you rarely go to Tumblr anymore. But I’m publishing this anyway. 

You know who you are.

Note: Sam, please don’t judge me for this. :)