A Realization
It happened yesterday. Our time for practicing and making props for our Noli play was up. It was time to go home, and we were walking down the 3rd floor of a building. I passed by Lucky Charm’s classroom, and I found out that they were still having a class. Hey, I know that the codename “Lucky Charm” for a crush is a bit ew, but hmph, I can’t think of anything else because his codename is stuck in my head.
Anyway, we passed by LC’s room and I saw him writing something intently on his paper. He is so handsome, I thought. For a moment, I just stared at him. That moment was too fast because I was walking while staring at him. And I, being a girl who never gets contented when it comes to seeing my crush, grabbed Amera and told her that we should go back so that we could pass by LC’s classroom again. LOL. She had no choice but to grant my request, so we separated from our classmates and went back to “see” my crush again. I had that magical moment when I saw him again, HAHAHA. I was still not contented, so again, I asked Amera to go with me and look at my crush for the last time. We were like dorks, passing by one classroom over and over again, just so I could satisfy my greedy heart. And I wrote the word “again” 90238091283 times in this paragraph. Okaaaay.
After that crazy moment, while Amera and I were walking, she asked me a question, a question that made my world stop for a moment.
“You’re not thinking about 3 anymore, are you?” Amera asked.
3. Of course, 3. He’s the guy I love since I was still in 2nd year. He’s the guy who made me cry when he graduated and left school. Of course. I should be thinking of him instead of Lucky Charm. Yes, LC’s my crush, but 3’s the one I truly love. (Char)
And I realized, I have moved on. My heart doesn’t beat fast anymore when I go to 3’s Facebook account (lol stalker!). I don’t even think about him often anymore. I don’t expect myself to see him again anymore. I don’t love him anymore.
I sighed, because I know that this coming March, it will be Lucky Charm’s turn to graduate. Like 3, he is going to leave school. He is going to leave me.
