Hehehe gusto ko pala yung mga series na nagpapaisip sayo (e.g. detective shit series, crime series, etc etc), pero nanonood din ako ng mga fantasy (?) series (The Vampire Diaries, Originals, and the like) hahaha.
Suggest as many as you like. :D Nagdodownload kasi ako, and I want to download as many as I can this summer :) Salamat!
You asked me if your hair looks messy and if you should have it cut or not; I answered “No, your hair looks fine. Let it be, and let’s see what happens.” You nodded and smiled at me, as if I just gave the answer to all your life problems.
I didn’t want you to cut your hair. I love the way how those curly locks look in your hair like vines crawling their way up a fence — so natural and beautiful. I love the way you tuck them in the back of your ear, and how you would always try to fix these tendrils so that they won’t make you look bad.
Don’t worry, my dear, because you will never look bad in my eyes. I just love everything about you, and not just your hair.
I love your eyes and how they light up everytime you think of something bright and interesting, or everytime you find the right answer to this chemistry problem. I love your eyelashes and how they touch the skin below those eyes when you blink. I love those cute dimples that go deep and the curve of your lips when you smile that mischievous smile at me.
I love your smell — it reminds me of peace and of flowers and of the beach and of… I don’t know. I know you only use one kind of perfume, but somehow, I smell different scents whenever you’re around (sorry if that’s weird).
Enough with your physical attributes.
I love the way you talk to me; you are always careful with your words, as if every single one of them is of great importance (and yes, that’s true). I love how you laugh at even the simplest things, even though you seldom do that. I love how you tease me with things that are sometimes really weird. I love how you allow me to see some of the hidden things about you, slowly. Do you remember that drawing you showed to me? It made me realize that there are more things that I should know about you.
I miss you, and that is why I wrote this. I just miss you so much. I know that we will never be a thing, and I’m not hoping for it to happen either (I’m pretty satisfied with what we are right now), but I just miss you.
My first year in UP had been a very fun journey, and I learned a lot while I was going through it. Part of the things that I learned: the false impressions of UP, and since I have a lot of time on my hands, I will be typing them here. These are just some that I could think of — I still have a lot to discover in my later years with UP. :)
1) UP students are perfect, smart-ass nerds. If you are not as smart them, you can go kill yourself.
I may be exaggerating, but you get the picture. Most people think that UP students get perfect scores in exams, make brilliant researches, etc etc etc. This may be one reason why some people do not bother taking UPCAT anymore, because of their lack of self-esteem. Let me tell you though, that this way of thinking is just wrong.
Although most of the students in UP are smart, not all are perfect. Nobody is perfect, in the first place. Students fail exams, complain about subjects, and cut classes. Failing an exam may be embarrassing for a first-timer, but once you’ll get familiar with UP life, you’ll realize that failing doesn’t mean that you’re already a failure. Failing can be a good thing, because it pushes people to not give up and try again. If there’s one thing that would describe UP students, it is that they do not give up.
2) All UP students are activists.
Admit it, your parents may have thought twice about sending you to UP because they were afraid that you might become an activist, and you know how people see activists — they think that they are people who are warfreaks and have nothing to do but to complain about the government.
This is a pretty stupid idea, though, because here in UP, people do not force you to be an activist. You may meet someone who’ll try to convince you to become one, but it in the end, it is up to you if you want to become an activist or not.
The idea that “activists are people who have nothing to do but complain about the government and they are an unnecessary part of the society” is also a stupid idea. Most Filipinos always see activists like that, not knowing that these people actually fight for the betterment of our country. They are not warfreaks (they actually have a very organized system) and they exist because “there is something wrong with the government and they want to correct it.”
Anyway, I already jumped from one topic to another. Apologies. Anyway, yes, not all UP students are activists.
HINDI. HINDI KITA MISS ZEI HAHAHA ASA KA :P
I am now back in our home here in Cagayan de Oro, and that means that stable Internet connection is back. You see, I have been living in my brother’s wifi-less apartment during the past week, and that’s why I haven’t published a thing here even if I wanted to.
Anyway, I’m now in CDO, and here’s a post I have been itching to publish: I PASSED MATH!!!!
Yes, I passed Math 53 (2.75). This is such a big deal to me because there was a moment in my life when I thought that I wouldn’t. I flunked the last two exams. After receiving the 5th long exam result and seeing my score, I felt scared. I mean yes, I feel scared from time to time, but that feeling that I had was something I have never felt before. Suddenly, my college life and and the consequences that I might face if I fail math (or any subject, for that matter) flashed before my eyes — my scholarship, me repeating a subject, and most of all, the anger and disappointment in my parents’ eyes. After that, I told myself: “Tere, you better fucking pass your final exam or else I will fucking kill you.”
And so I did. I was so happy when I took the final exam, because unlike the 4th and 5th LEs, this exam was relatively easier. I was not sure if this is because I studied hard for this or it was just bearable. I was able to answer all the questions in the questionnaire, and although I know that I have wrong answers, I know that I did okay.
AND HELL YEAH I PASSED. 2.75!!! It’s so close to 3, and I’m really thankful. Even though 3 is a passing grade, I know I will be so depressed if I get one.
I almost failed Math 53, and I am not blaming anyone but myself. I failed to balance academics and org application process. I remember being awake at 4:30 am (and having a math long exam later in the morning) not because I was studying math, but because I was doing something org-related. I missed a lot of classes (especially large classes, and when I say a lot, I mean more than 10 sessions) so that I could accomplish the org’s requirements on time. I was just so bad at managing my time well.
I don’t have many regrets though. I mean, of course I regret being so bad at time management. I know that even though it’s hard balancing org and acads, it is always possible to do it. I don’t regret applying for my org, though. No. Regrets. At. All.
Now, I’m saying goodbye to Math 53. Even though my journey with you was hard, I still had a great time with you hehehe. Thanks for letting me go. :)
The second semester of this school year has been a blur; it has gone by too fast. It seems like I didn’t go to school at all, and this I guess this is because I spent more time on the org’s application process than on academics, which is, by the way, the reason why I’m here in this university.
Yes, I admit that I prioritized org over academics, and the consequences are now slowly crawling their way back to me. My grades are a bit shaky especially in Math 53 and in Chem 16. It takes a lot of energy to say this, but yeah, I failed my 4th long exam in Math 53. It was the first time in my life that I failed a math exam, and yes, it was fucking painful. Until now, I could still picture myself sobbing while I went out of the math building. I called Zei (friend and also co-applicant) and told her that I failed. When she told me that she also failed, I don’t know, but I felt relief, knowing that I was not alone and I am not the sole reason why I failed. Let me be clear, though, that I’m not blaming the org for my failure; it’s still my fault because I failed to balance org and acads. If the org has something to do with my failure, well I guess it’s only a small part of the latter. I mean, even my Math 17 instructor told me that it is normal for someone who’s applying in an org to have lower grades.
I failed my 4th exam in Math, and I have to get a high grade in the 5th and in the Final Exam. The problem is, the lessons are not getting any easier, and I’m really scared. I don’t want to have a grade lower than 2.00, but considering my standing in Math now, there is a big possibility that this will happen. Huhu or worse, failure. I don’t want to fail math. My parents are literally going to kill me, and a lot of things will be affected, like my scholarship, etc etc etc. Sorry, am I being too pessimistic? :(
Hi guys. It has been uhm.. almost one month since I last blogged something! Things have been very hectic and messy lately, and this is why I haven’t updated this blog for the longest time.
January is by far the busiest month of my college life. Heck, so many things happened that I don’t think I can talk about each of them in just one post, so I am just going to write about the highlights.
I don’t think I have blogged this yet, but did you know that I am now a working student? Well, it’s not really like the real kind of working student because I work only once a week, on a Monday. I’m a bookkeeper (Wow I might as well be an accounting student instead of an engineering student haha) of a foundation that gives me monthly allowance. It’s a pretty tiring job, but I do it anyway because I know that this is a big help to my family and to myself. Working for 4 days in exchange of a monthly allowance is already a good deal. I think I’m going to shift from being a bookkeeper to being a volunteer teacher though, because I’m really busy on Mondays (because of org stuff) and Saturdays are my ideal days of work.
I am also currently applying for an acad org, and the application process is really time-consuming and energy-draining. Huhu I can’t even describe how hard the app process is, because it’s really really really fucking hard. Actually, there were days when I cried a lot because of the app process. I’m not going to elaborate on the app process because I think it’s classified information, but one thing is for sure - I will try my best not to defer. NOPE, I WON’T DEFER. I will survive all the bullshit I am about to face and I will be strong. For that to happen, though, I know that I need to strengthen my heart and my mind, be open-minded, and not be sensitive. I will also remove the unnecessary things in my life and try to balance acad life and org life. Huhuhu you can do it Tere!
So I guess work life and org life are the highlights of my life so far. I’m trying my best to balance work and org and acad. It may be hard but I trust myself and I trust God.
Tbh, I’m exhausted. But no, I won’t give up. I won’t.
- So yeah, our Chem 16 1st LE results were released this morning
- Felt relieved because I got an “okay” score haha
- Pakshet kasi yung Multiple Choice part e! 3 points each. Pak. 11 ang mali ko dun. -33 na kaagad ><
- Our prof said that we just have to maintain a score at least 100 (out of 150+) in all three LEs so that we’d be exempted in the finals
- She also said that 1st LE was the easiest of the 3 exams. Fak.
- Oh Thermochem and other topics this 2nd LE, please don’t be a bitch.
- I just want to be exempted in the finals, that’s all. :/